Amanda Marello ’12

Crowds and Gardai (thousands of Gardai) lined the streets of Dublin yesterday to greet Queen Elizabeth II. Upon walking outside of the campus gates of Trinity, (where she was greeted yesterday by SO many people–including Fr. Peter, my history professor from last semester, Anne Enright–who is a graduate of Trinity and one of the authors I will be writing on in my senior thesis–and Ireland’s previous president and also graduate of Trinity, Mary Robinson), I immediately noticed something that made me stop and stare–and almost made tears come to my eyes. The British and the Irish flags were flying side by side for the first time in over a hundred years. If that is not a symbol of hope, I couldn’t tell you what is.

On an even more exciting note, Queen Elizabeth drove down Westland Row today (and I was able to SEE her waving from my apartment window). Needless to say, she looks absolutely lovely today and will be attending a state dinner at Dublin Castle-where I may have to stalk her again!

As if this blog could get more exciting, my Mom is making her way over to the Emerald Isle tomorrow! I absolutely cannot wait for her arrival, and it looks like she will not only be able to see the Queen, but also President Obama, who is making his way over to Ireland to visit County Offaly and embrace his Irish heritage on Monday (stopping in Dublin first for a rally!) See, everyone just wants a piece of the Emerald Isle.  🙂

In other news, I began packing today and soon realized that packing is synonymous with sobbing. So, that didn’t last very long. I’d like to take this opportunity, then, to offer an apology in advance to the people who have to encounter me in Dublin Airport on the 27th!

Yesterday, I was talking to my flat-mate, who just took a trip up to Belfast over the weekend! Her trip happened to coincide with some dissident activity in Northern Ireland, activity related to a truly momentous occasion that will be occurring tomorrow: for the first time in over 100 years, a British monarch, Her Majesty Queen Elizabeth II and her husband, Prince Philip, will be visiting Ireland. 100 years IS, in fact, an extremely long time, especially considering that England is what? A little over an hour’s plane ride away from the Emerald Isle? But, there’s good reasoning for this, as well.

What my flat-mate and I just couldn’t get over was how RECENT this part of Ireland’s history is—and also just how far it extends back in time. 100 years ago Ireland and England were in the midst of a seemingly everlasting conflict for independence (which really began when King Henry VIII declared himself King of Ireland in 1541), a conflict which climaxed in the 1916 Easter Rising, which, although led to independence for Southern Ireland (known as the Republic), also resulted in the execution of nearly every Irish leader of the revolt by the monarchy, and the seizure of the North by the British throne. As you could imagine, then, the fact that Ireland is still not a united country proves extremely aggravating to many people living in both the North and South today; in addition, the fact that this separation has been the cause of numerous deadly conflicts in the North has led many to blame the British crown for the continuous dissent its rule has produced. Mixed feelings, then, surround the Queen’s Visit tomorrow. Some are ambivalent; some believe that Britain should withdraw before their monarch steps foot in the Republic (feelings that find demonstration in signs that state: “No British Queen in the city of ’16); some feel as though perhaps this is the turning over of a new leaf in the previously discordant relationship between Britain and Ireland.

Nevertheless, Queen Elizabeth II will be on Trinity’s campus at approximately 9AM tomorrow; Gardai officers patrol the streets in multitude (it is expected that 4,000 police officers will be on the streets of Dublin at any one time throughout each day of her four day visit); and, she will, despite widespread public disapproval, lay a wreath at the Garden of Remembrance, a memorial garden dedicated to those who gave their lives in the fight for Irish freedom. And, perhaps, this is not a sufficient apology to Ireland; it is, to be sure, one that has been long (and for some, too long) delayed. But, regardless, it is a start or, at the least, the beginnings of a fresh start and the leaving behind of the bitter resentment that has characterized, at least partially, the relationship between the two countries for centuries.

Perhaps, the best way to describe it is through the verse of Seamus Heaney; his poem, “Doubletake,” puts it this way:

“But then, once in a lifetime

the longed for tidal wave

of justice can rise up,

and hope and history rhyme.”

I was on my way to the library today, in order to prepare for my exam on the Uncanny in Women’s Writing tomorrow, when it started to drizzle. This afternoon, the temperatures in Ireland seemed to drop and clouds darkened the sky, making it seem like we’re in the middle of October, not halfway through May! On my way over, I ran into Fr. Peter, one of the other chaplains on campus, waiting in the rain outside of the Examination Hall.

I don’t recall if I ever told you how I met Fr. Peter, but the story really only attests to what an incredible person he is. It was in my first few days of Trinity that I decided to make the effort to completely and totally pre-empt homesickness. My plan was that if I reached out to outlets that had always comforted me at Holy Cross, I could at least partially avoid it! I immediately knew what my first outlet would be—the Chaplain’s Office. Being a part of Liturgical Ministries at Holy Cross is one of the things I love most about HC—and it’s also one of the things I’ve missed the most this year. It was not long, then, before I found Fr. Paddy and Fr. Peter’s email addresses and sought them out, not knowing then that they would shape my entire experience abroad. Fr. Peter had then invited me to lunch in the Chaplain’s Office—and, alas, my bond with the TCD Chaplains Office began!

As I was chatting away to Fr. Peter, he informed me that he was waiting outside the Exam Hall to greet a student who he knew had been stressed out and under a lot of pressure in taking this particular exam, wanting to make sure that he had made it through okay. I’ve known all year what an amazing resource the Chaplain’s Office is, but I have to say that it never fails to amaze me when I see a member of TCD’s staff—whether faculty, chaplain, administrator, etc.—pause to reach out to one individual student. This is something that would never even cross my mind as a surprise at HC; I have to admit that this is truly a commonplace experience for people at HC know faces and names, because the campus is so small and homey.

However, on a campus of 16,000 students, to see Fr. Peter take the time to stand in the rain, to source out one individual reminded me of what an amazing place I’ve been a part of, a place where individuals truly care about the well-being of each and every student.

I have to admit that, for the past few days I’ve been fighting with Trinity working through my exam schedule, which although not ideal, has certainly taught me a lot about time management and really (I mean, really) knowing your stuff. Unlike at HC, Trinity’s examinations count for 80% of your mark in pretty much every class, so even though you’ve done other work throughout the semester, it doesn’t really count for much! To say that I’m unaccustomed to this system where one day could make or break your entire grade is a complete understatement. I’m unaccustomed—and I don’t particularly like it. But, that’s alright, because three of mine are already over! It was a wee bit crazy having one on Monday and then jumping into two on today, but I am happy to say that I think that they all went well (I hope!) —even though my hand is just about ready to fall off now.

However, the TCD girls and I had a great (and somewhat emotional) kick-off to finals week; on Sunday, we went to Silvia’s house for dinner—seeing her for the last time. She made us her delicious quiche, banoffee pie (yes, it’s exactly what it sounds like—banana and toffee. And, it’s absolutely marvelous.), and so much more—more food than us four girls and the UCD Crusaders could finish! We were also able to meet more of her family, which was really lovely. I’ve always been bad at good-byes—and I can’t say that this has changed in Dublin. As we all moved to get up to leave, Silvia wished us the best of luck and told us what a pleasure it was to have us, how she hoped we had had a wonderful life-changing year. As soon as she started talking, I found myself tearing up (luckily, I have a cold, so I was able to cover it up more effectively!)

Even though I have seventeen days left, I was all of a sudden struck with the impending reality.

The end is actually approaching. And it’s approaching quickly. Now, I constantly find myself thinking about how little time I have left in Ireland—a time that decreases by the hour, the second even. I can’t begin to say how excited I am to get back to my family; I can’t wait to see everyone and distribute hugs, hear stories. But, the fact that this year is done—and how quickly it’s gone by—makes me unbelievably sad. You see, I always knew that I would cry on August 29th when I left my family standing outside security at Newark Airport and stepped forward into a life changing year with three fellow Crusaders. But, I couldn’t have ever anticipated that a little over two weeks before my departure from Dublin, that tears would start to roll down my face whenever I thought about leaving. And, I think, in the end, I’ve figured out why. I’ve already quoted that home is where the heart is—and so, I owe my heart to my home.

But, my wings? Those I owe to Dublin.

Home is where the heart is, that’s certainly true; but, lucky enough—home also isn’t a building, so it’s quite transportable! So, last week, part of my home came to me; my Dad and brother made their first trip to the Emerald Isle! Prior to their arrival, I had composed a list of about thirty-five things I wanted them to do and see in Dublin

 alone—so to say that I kept them running around would be quite the understatement. From the minute they stepped off the plane, we were on our way to Dublin Castle, Stephen’s Green, Christchurch cathedral, eating sandwiches in O’Brien’s, standing outside the GPO—the list goes on and on (literally). I think they went to bed at 7PM that night because I didn’t let them sleep when they got off the plane (Oops! Sorry, guys!). Our second day together, we completed the Howth cliff walk, which provided absolutely incredible views of Dublin. The weather was quite warm; but by the time we had reached the top of the cliff, it could almost be described as “hot,” which is really unusual for Ireland’s standards—the boys clearly brought the weather with them!

We spent the next four days in Galway, hitting many of Ireland’s main tourists attractions—including Eyre Square (renamed Kennedy Square when JFK spent about ten minutes in Galway City), the Cliffs of Moher (which should definitely be on the list of seven natural wonders of the world), the Burren (where we saw a grave site that dated back to 500 BC—I think! Not quite as old as Newgrange, though!), Kylemore Abbey (if you have the chance, Google the story behind the creation of this castle; it’s probably the most romantic story you’d find! Mitchell Henry built it for his wife, Margaret, when they visited Ireland and fell in love with Connemara. When she passed away at 45 from Nile fever, he constructed a mausoleum for her body on the grounds, and a small Gothic church in her honor. He loved her so much, in fact, that for the next 40 years until his death, he did not remarry. And, on top of this story, the castle is just phenomenally gorgeous. Pictures just don’t do it justice!), and Connemara (where we ran into a horse, a Connemara pony, and more sheep than you could count! I almost took all of them home—but our tour guide wasn’t too fond of the idea, unfortunately.). As if all of this sightseeing wasn’t enough, the bed and breakfast we stayed in was located in a small town outside of Galway city, giving us a great view of Galway Bay! The trip was really incredible, and I was so happy that my Dad and brother were able to see the countryside of Ireland; Dublin is wonderful and really is so diverse—from Howth to the City Centre to Dun Laoghaire, all have different flavours! But, I think that the picture one has when thinking of Ireland doesn’t incorporate taxis, and the busy-ness of a city environment, but rather, the peace and quiet of a countryside.

At the end of our trip to Galway, though, even the boys were happy to be returning to Dublin (as was I)—hearing this made me extremely happy, knowing that their short stay in Dublin already had them loving the city. We spent the last two days roaming the city centre, making sure they saw everything, bought the perfect souvenirs (including a beautiful claddagh door-knocker, which I am so excited to see mounted outside of my house when I return home in a month!), and eating in all of my favorite places! We spent their last night walking around Dun Laoghaire; it was a beautiful night weather-wise (every day they were here actually was; go Ireland!). We were able to see the Joyce Tower, and witness all of the city lights along the sea front come alive as darkness fell.

Of course, it was beyond hard to let them go. But, I feel terribly blessed that they were able to come and get to know Ireland and mostly, Dublin, the place I now feel comfortable calling my third home.

If you’ve been keeping up with my blog, you’ve read the names Kelsey, Nora, and Amanda more than once! If you couldn’t already tell, these three girls are a few of my favorite Crusaders, so excited hardly begins to describe how I felt when I woke up on the morning of April 9th, knowing that I would be departing for La Coruna, Spain in the matter of a few hours! I simply couldn’t wait to see the girls and the city where Kelsey and Nora have spent the past seven months of their junior year. As wonderful and amazing as Skype chats and email conversations are, they do not begin to compare to seeing someone in person or fully capturing a story or experience! To get to La Coruna from Dublin, I first had to fly to Madrid. Any small worries regarding a language barrier that may have lingered were quickly dissipated upon the process of landing in Madrid. I have never been one to enjoy roller coasters, so as you could imagine, taking off and landing are my least favorite parts of a flight journey! As we proceeded to descend, I jumped in my seat and the woman next to me, observing both my nervousness and the fact that I probably couldn’t speak Spanish, proceeded to ask if I was okay, and if I needed some gum. She was just so genuinely kind and I wished I could have expressed my gratefulness for her concern more fully! The next thing I knew, I was in the Madrid airport, anxiously waiting for my flight to La Coruna to take off. I tried to read the book I had brought, but I was far too excited to focus on the words on the page! Upon stepping off the second flight, I basically sprinted my way past people wheeling suitcases, right into the open arms of Kelsey, Nora, and Amanda (who had arrived in Spain a few hours earlier!)!

The three full days in Coruna were truly one of the highlights of my entire year! It was so fun to walk around the city, and see everything that Kelsey and Nora see on a daily basis—and Coruna is a most beautiful and homey place to live! The first day, we walked on the Paseo Maritimo, taking us to the Torre de Hercules (the lighthouse below!), the Plaza of Maria Pita, the beach, and really beautiful views of Coruna! The weather (all three days) was incredibly sunny and clear—quite unlike Dublin where there always seems to be a cloud lingering somewhere in the sky! (Yesterday, one of my flatmates called me “tan!” If you know me, you know that I never ever get tan. I go from pale to lobster in a matter of minutes in the sun—and legitimately have never been called tan in my entire life! Clearly, I need to go back to Coruna—not really for that reason, but because I’m missing these three too much already!) Our trip also consisted of walking around the wonderful shopping areas in Coruna—there were too many beautiful scarves to count and I think I found three new favorites in every store that we walked into! We had delicious magdalenas at Caffe Vecchio, an adorable café, ate amazing pizza at an Italian restaurant in the Plaza, tried pulpo (or octopus—a Coruna speciality! See the octopus picture below!) among other tapas. We also traveled up in a glass bubble (I think it was called Monte de San Pedro, to see the city from a different, really amazing view!) On the upper level, there were many museums, and a maze that Amanda and I would have been put to the test to go through if it wasn’t being clipped! (phew! Haha!) Pictures –or words!—can hardly capture what a wonderful time I had seeing the girls, or what a beautiful city La Coruna is! Saying goodbye was more than difficult, but when we counted the weeks, we realized that it was about eight until we would all be back in the States—and able to reunite once again!

The amazing friendships and love that bind the Crusader family are entirely irreplaceable; and that special bond is exactly why I wouldn’t trade this year of study abroad for anything—because I know that I have a second family in Worcester who I can always rely on, and who will finally be fully reunited in the Fall. The only quote to fully capture this friendship across the miles would be the one that Kelsey and Nora put on the HC reunion shirts they created when they came to Dublin:

“Love is missing someone whenever you’re apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you’re close in heart.”

This upcoming week is my last week of classes at Trinity. How can this be possible, you say? I have absolutely no idea. The thought of walking into my Irish Literary Autobiographies class tomorrow for the last time is actually breaking my heart as I’m writing this post. The seven of us, and our professor have gotten pretty close —and we’re actually all bringing in a little something to class tomorrow to celebrate such a wonderful year!

Then, later on, I’ll be going to the last Taize prayer session offered. I had never been to Taize before coming to Trinity, but have found that I absolutely love it. The half hour on Monday evenings is incredibly relaxing, and something I really look forward to in starting my week! In addition, Fr. Paddy Gleeson, the priest who runs the program, is just delightful! I’ll miss his good humour and really loving, and caring personality—I think he’d fit right in with the Jesuits at HC, so I’m thinking of trying to get him to come back with me! 

Coming up soon, then, will be my last Visits with the Vincent DePaul society. I tend to be quite a mushy person, so it would not surprise me if I have to pull out tissues as I say my good-byes to some of the people who have made this year so special and meaningful.

This period of “lasts” is also becoming more real because I just received my final exam schedule; the last day of exams is the 27th and my last one is the 26th. At first, I have to admit, I was super bummed out about this. Not because I don’t love Ireland, but because that means I will be missing: my little cousin’s First Communion, my other little cousin’s first ballet recital, Mother’s Day, a celebration of my high school’s legacy, and HC’s Baccalaureate Mass and Commencement. While these all will undoubtedly be so hard to miss, I do feel very lucky to have this time left in Ireland—and I can’t believe it’s down to about seven weeks! Yikes!
In addition, we just registered for housing for senior (umm… excuse me, what?!) year at Holy Cross! My roommate Kelsey and I will be rooming with our friends, Casandra and Courtney—hoping for one of the apartments! And, on top of this, it’s time to pick classes for the Fall already! I can’t believe that this is yet another set of “lasts,” albeit, HC “lasts.”

And, so I don’t leave you on a sad note: HAPPY NATIONAL POETRY MONTH! www.poets.org has a wonderful way to celebrate; just subscribe to their mailing list and they’ll send ya a poem for every day of April to begin your day with!

One of the primary reasons I decided upon studying abroad in Ireland was due to my passion for Irish literature. So, this week, when I had the chance to meet Hugo Hamilton AND Michael Longley in the span of three days, I was insanely, INSANELY, excited. What made this even better is the fact that I literally had just read both of their autobiographical works, The Speckled People and Tuppenny Stung, respectively, in the weeks preceding their public readings. Furthermore, I’m currently writing a paper on Michael Longley—so it was so nice to put a face and a voice to the words on the page (although meeting him did also increase my worry about doing justice to the man!)

Hugo Hamilton actually read in one of the lecture theatres at Trinity, and nearly half of my class came—Frances, Tess, Nuala, and I sat together at both the reading and reception, completely in awe of Hamilton. He chose to read another autobiographical piece for us, and at the end, was faced with many questions about how he turns memory into words, the subjectivity of memory, the unreliability of memory, etc.

Longley read last night at the Pavilion Theatre in Dun Laoghaire (pronounced Dun Leary) as part of the Poetry NOW festival in Dublin, alongside Heather McHugh, an American poet I had never heard of, but was equally brilliant! At the age of seventy, Longley just released a new volume of poetry, A Hundred Doors, with many of the poems dedicated to his grandchildren. He concluded his reading with a highly directed statement, attesting to the wonderful work of the Poetry NOW festival, and suggesting that no one “tinker with it.” Apparently, there are threats that the festival will be discontinued, which I find highly disappointing. Considering that poetry as a genre is horribly underappreciated, I think festivals like Poetry NOW are completely necessary to making sure that the voices of poets continue to be heard. Because, as Longley put it: “Our subject is civilization.”

I’ll leave you with the two poems that struck me most.

What He Thought by Heather McHugh

We were supposed to do a job in Italy
and, full of our feeling for
ourselves (our sense of being
Poets from America) we went
from Rome to Fano, met
the Mayor, mulled a couple
matters over. The Italian literati seemed
bewildered by the language of America: they asked us
what does “flat drink” mean? and the mysterious
“cheap date” (no explanation lessened
this one’s mystery). Among Italian writers we

could recognize our counterparts: the academic,
the apologist, the arrogant, the amorous,
the brazen and the glib. And there was one
administrator (The Conservative), in suit
of regulation gray, who like a good tour guide
with measured pace and uninflected tone
narrated sights and histories
the hired van hauled us past.
Of all he was most politic–
and least poetic– so
it seemed. Our last
few days in Rome
I found a book of poems this
unprepossessing one had written: it was there
in the pensione room (a room he’d recommended)
where it must have been abandoned by
the German visitor (was there a bus of them?) to whom
he had inscribed and dated it a month before. I couldn’t
read Italian either, so I put the book
back in the wardrobe’s dark. We last Americans

were due to leave
tomorrow. For our parting evening then
our host chose something in a family restaurant,
and there we sat and chatted, sat and chewed, till,
sensible it was our last big chance to be Poetic, make
our mark, one of us asked

“What’s poetry?
Is it the fruits and vegetables
and marketplace at Campo dei Fiori

or the statue there?” Because I was
the glib one, I identified the answer
instantly, I didn’t have to think– “The truth
is both, it’s both!” I blurted out. But that
was easy. That was easiest
to say. What followed taught me something
about difficulty,

for our underestimated host spoke out
all of a sudden, with a rising passion, and he said:

The statue represents
Giordano Bruno, brought
to be burned in the public square
because of his offence against authority, which was to say
the Church. His crime was his belief
the universe does not revolve around
the human being: God is no
fixed point or central government
but rather is poured in waves, through
all things: all things
move. “If God is not the soul itself,
he is the soul OF THE SOUL of the world.” Such was
his heresy. The day they brought him forth to die

they feared he might incite the crowd (the man
was famous for his eloquence). And so his captors
placed upon his face
an iron mask
in which he could not speak.

That is how they burned him.
That is how he died,
without a word,
in front of everyone. And poetry–

(we’d all put down our forks by now, to listen to
the man in gray; he went on softly)– poetry

is what he thought, but did not say.

Christmas Tree by Michael Longley

You are my second grandson, Christmas-born.
I put on specs to read your face. Whispering
Sweet nothings to your glistening eyelids,
Am I outspoken compared with you? You sleep
While I carry you to our elderly beech.
Your forefinger twitches inside its mitten.
Do you feel at home in my aching crook?
There will be room beneath your fontanel
For this branchy diagram of winter.
I take you back indoors to the Christmas tree.
Dangling for you among the fairy lights
Are the zodiac’s animals and people.

I feel terribly for all of you Northeasterners, who are harkening in the Spring with yet more snow! Not to make you jealous, but Spring is definitely here in Ireland. I know because:

1. I woke up at 5AM this morning to the sound of birds chirping pleasantly (they didn’t wake me up; I think I just have insomnia!)

2. I scrapped my winter jacket for a light raincoat and wasn’t a wee bit cold.

3. The flowers are starting to bloom on campus.

4. I was late to class because of how slowly I was walking to take it all in-and snap pictures! Oops!

5. Trinity becomes a hub of tourist activity and you have to fight your way through Front Square.

6. I see the Trinity cat a few times a day! She’s clearly happy that Spring is here too!

7. I am waiting anxiously for my final exam schedule. Eeek!

I won’t make you all too jealous now! But, I hope that for everyone, that your Spring soon looks like this:

There’s no better place in the world to celebrate St. Patrick’s Day than Ireland—and particularly, Dublin! Throughout the week, Dublin quickly became tourist central as people from all over the world appeared to gather in anticipation of the Irish festival. The shops certainly reflected this, whipping out these giant green hats (some with beards attached), beads, flags, banners—you name it in green, and it was there! The morning of St. Patrick’s Day, I got up quite early to be sure to explore the city before the madness commenced with the parade at 12 PM (or really, 10AM, considering people began lining up at 9!) I was heading back towards Trinity after taking some pictures, when all of sudden I heard my name being shouted from across the street. Upon looking over, I almost burst into tears of happiness when I realized it was three friends from Holy Cross who are studying at Oxford this academic year: Jill, Julia, and Emily. They had planned a last minute trip to Dublin, and we met completely by chance! Unfortunately, it was their last day in Dublin, but after helping them find the bus they were taking to UCD, we planned for meeting up later in the day!

I ended up going to the parade with my friend, Evelyn, who is from Belgium and studying at Trinity this semester! We were on our feet for about two hours in our spot before the parade reached us, headed with “St. Patrick” himself, and followed by high school bands, dance troupes, floats, and various other performances! After that, we went to lunch at a cute little café in Temple Bar—bearing witness to the excitement in Dublin, which was truly indescribable. People walked the streets (you could tell who the tourists were because they were the ones decked out in green), stopping to break out into a little jig, or belt out an Irish song. I finished the night meeting up with many Crusaders, and catching up for a few hours! We talked about how good it would be to return to Holy Cross (because that time is quickly approaching), the little things we would miss about our sites, and just reminisced over HC memories. It made me smile to realize that the Crusader family does really follow you, wherever you go—and there really couldn’t be a better second family.

I’ll leave you all with an popular Irish blessing:

Go n-éirí an bóthar leat
Go raibh an ghaoth go brách ag do chúl
Go lonraí an ghrian go te ar d’aghaidh
Go dtite an bháisteach go mín ar do pháirceanna
Agus go mbuailimid le chéile arís,
Go gcoinní Dia i mbos A láimhe thú.

May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face,
The rains fall soft upon your fields
And until we meet again
May God hold you in the hollow of His hand.